this whole blog for that matter but more to the point my current dilemma. i got an invite to sign a petition that is backed by autism speaks. the petition is to push for insurance companies to have to provide speech therapy etc. to children with autism. so scoot has insisted that autism speaks is the bureaucratic arm of the antichrist but the bill seems right on. ultimately i think i am going to sign it. it's a petition for legislation not becoming part of the group. for that matter the truth is i haven't checked out scoot's take on the group so for all i know i could disagree with him. nothing personal mark, i almost never take anyone's word on anything without doing my own research; particularly if they are emotional on the subject. i agree with the petition both in terms of what insurance companies should be doing and what would be nice for taxpayers to not be doing. but what i don't agree with about the petition is that it should extend beyond autism - children born with any brain disorder that requires speech therapy private insurance doesn't cover.
so there's that. i've started back on buffy. this time i'm gonna watch the extras and special features etc. and goddess help someone if dollhouse sucks. i will not be amused. sarah michelle was pretty hot at the beginning when she used to eat.
speaking of eating. i'm really annoyed with being fat. and i understand that some of you - well, all of you are going to tell me i'm not fat. some of you will tell me that cuz you believe it and some cuz that is what you are supposed to say. but i'm not fishing for anything. i'm telling you what is truly going on in my head. i feel like i got stuck in someone else's body and i can't get out.
you know i keep thinking of things to write on a random list - ever since i wrote that first one. i'll just be walking along and think - - -so i figure i'll do another one - just here and not necessarily until 25 oh, did i forget to mention that my plan was to sit here for at least an hour and try to come up with shit to say? it was going to be longer than an hour but the inlaws will be here tomorrow so i have osme shit to do before they arrive. i could tell you more about the inlaws but i really don't want to get my blood boiling again. speaking of which david boreanaz ohhhhhhhhhhh he's hot now but by Brighid! back then he was just . . . well, he shoulda come with his own spoon . so that's where i'll start my list - only this one will be a little more stream of consciousness
1. i almost never have linear dreams and other than this one i never have dreams about famous people. however, i did have one where i was marrying (okay; too funny - joss whedon just told me i have too much time on my hands becasue i'm watching the commentary) anyway i was marrying david but then i had to ask if he was really a vampire and he got really mad and so i asked james marsters who also got mad but then they started calling each other angel and spike and no one would answer me. and we never did get to the sex goddamn it
2. and on the subject of dreams i had a dream at the end of june (2008) it was gideon and i - we were idk like we were when we were 16. i had forgotten all about that dream except that the universe is very funny. see, i keep ending up being directed to emails from or to him. when i stumbled on that one i was looking for a work email. someone wanted to know if i had received an email back in june of 08 and where do i click as i'm scrolling down "ok i'm curious" - - no, i'm not saying that now that was gideon's response to my email that i had a dream about him.
3. when i was eight or nine we got news that my mother's friend's son had died. i had visited him a year or two before. we made out - yes, really, decided we would get married. sure we were little. but a year or so later i wrote to ask him (and my mom wrote his mother) if he could come visit. we got the letter back that he died of a brain tumor. he asked for me while he was dying. i spoke to him - his ghost, whatever. i still think about him and think my son talked with him; maybe still does. and yeah, whatever, i'm crazy / don't care
4. i am a really good (i've heard great) cook and i love all sorts of food with nearly no hang ups / dislikes and yet cereal and sandwiches are things i crave all the time.
5. in college a group of friends called me scooter because they said i looked like scooter from the muppet show
yeah, so it's a good jump starter but i'm bored of it. plus, once again, my hip is hurting.
so thursday or wait, yeah, thursday went to my little new agey shop. two things - well, maybe more but let's start there. first of all there was this woman in there talking about how her nephew is one of the indigo children. it's one of those usher in the new age - - whatever. i don't want to debate its reality or lack there of mostly cuz i don't know much about it but my point is her nephew is a year old and she is basing this on having seen a blue light when he was born. i believe in the other; i believe there is more here and what your intuition tells you etc etc but good lord people. not that her thinking that is the problem - the problem is she wants to do something about it - direct the kid's life around it. just makes me mental.
anyway, what i really wanted to tell you ws that i found this book "refuse to choose" by barbara sher. the idea is that there is a pesonality type / people that are drawn to do just one thing. we'll see - i'll keep you updated. it felt perfect. i also bought a book on soul retrieval. oh and kim i bought you a present.
so, yeah, no coherence but it's not depressing either and
Also . . . I can kill you with my brain.
6 comments:
Wow that was a long post. So long I forgot the beginning. Actually pretty much all I want to know is what's my present and when am I getting it, but that would be selfish of me to say so um...
Your not fat, you're just thick.
I'll see how I feel about Autism causes after I have this kid. I hope I don't have to know too much about it.
My latest memorable dream involved me making out with a hot Robert Downey Jr.
Your enthusiasm for cooking is admirable and usually turnsed out great, especially cause I got fed, but remember the pumpkin incident? lol
Re: Autism speaks.
Hitler probably was nice to a dog once.
Hitler actually was quite the animal lover. But thanks your response actually did make things clearer. If the kkk was sponsoring or even just supporting a bill to end child abuse I wouldstill sign it. Your response helped because it had nothing to do with what I said which reminded me that an idea doesn't have merit based on whose idea it is. So now I'm only left with two dilemmss that are closely rel*ted - if autism isn't a disorder how can it qualify anyone for any help - medical or otherwise. And two why is this bill only for autism. There are other brain disorders and other disorders that cause speech issues. Why are those kids not worthy
and incidentally - the whole hitler thing - a few things about that. i'm your friend so it's cool but if you are going to argue your points with with other people . . . it generally automatically forfeits the argument http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Godwin%27s_Law
plus while i have only browsed information on autism speaks i'm pretty sure i would have noticed the 'turn people with autism into lamps' section.
it isn't to say that they aren't doing something wrong - they may well be and i will get on that research project very soon.
ya know that puzzle symbol you have on your blog - aspies for freedom embraced the infinity symbol as a reaction to that particular symbol. just thought you might want to know.
also, aff lists as one of its goals * To increase funding for, and access to, autistic support services and ethical forms of treatment.
Many forms of treatment are highly beneficial to many autistic people - For example, speech therapy, sensory integration therapy, and general counselling. Also, ongoing support services can help people live more productive lives - for example, emergency housing, specialised medical services, and employment support services.
Aspies For Freedom advocates increased funding for support services, and supports the fundraising efforts of support-based autism charities.
so i would assume they are "for" the speech therapy bill also.
so yeah, i'm signing the bill
but all this brings up some other questions. for instance, if this is a disease or a disorder than why should there be any counseling; therapy of any kind. seriously. i'm not trying to be provocative. i just want to understand the thought behind that.
kim - and gtting longer still
i knew it - i almost wrote in the post: kim will be replying immediately
thick - you're thick - in your brain
seems weird that you wouldn't want to know even before that - not cuz of the kid. but that's cool. try not to focus on it in terms of the kid too much. it's not like you could give him/her autism but if you are constantly looking for signs . . . although, if you are really concerned about it you might want to know a little somethign about how you feel about the causes ahead of time.
i don't remember the pumpkin incident (did it happen in kc - haha) but i fully and freely admit a few experiments have gone awry.
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