novelette anyone?

first off my body is damned near broken

okay so this morning i woke up with this thought. if they clone a human would there be a soul. if the answer is no; that is to say if the soul doesn't follow the flesh by definition then isn't it just as possible for there to be a person without a soul? if the answer to that is no then okay, that means that the soul is part of the birthing process. my own personal belief is that it is part of what is referred to as the "quickening" - somewhere around 16 / 18 weeks. don't ask me why. the truth is that this is the type of shit that just pops into my head. which is a bit annoying since i have enough relevant bullshit plaguing me.

i am watching the movie W. - waiting for the drugs to kick in so i can clean my house with limited pain so that i can be in a lot of pain later. so far it's not bad. i thought it was going to be completely funny and/or a total bush bash. there's a little of that but well, cripes i mean the guy actually did gt fired from nearly every job he had. they haven't even addressed the fact that he managed to bankrupt two oil companies in texas.

but while they are pointing out some of his shit they are also saying that yes in fact he did want to bring democracy to the middle east. personally i'm not sure about that but . . . so far i would recommend this movie; regardless of your politics. well, don't watch it if you think bush is an undisputed hero or if you think he is the anti-christ. cuz he's neither.

on a lighter note - i saw some comedian doing a bit where he was being george h.w. talking to w. and he says "and why are you the only one in the family with a texas accent" lol

i've spent a long time waiting for some kind of revelation ; epiphany - AHA! so here's the conclusion i've come to - i think usually that happens to people who already have a very strong set mindset. i don't mean they're narrow minded or they don't question. but i question everything all the time. there's almost nothing i take for granted. i know that sounds like i am patting myself on the back - i'm not. it's good to question and to keep an open mind. on the other hand there is a weakness to it. but whatever - the point is if you are constantly questioning things it is hard for something to really pop up and completely change your mind about everything. so i guess i should stop waiting for my aha moment is the point of that.

i just spent an hour arguing with RCN. goddess i hate them. i implore you to stay away from them if at all possible. techs upport left me on hold for a half hour and then hung up on me.

okay - yeah gotta watch this movie if for nothing else to hear the iraq discussion midway through the movie ESP colin powell.

and now for something completely different



so - this as with all things i need to find a balance. i started writing early in the morning and then burnt out to where i can't really bring it altogether neatly. or usually i wait until later in the night and then i don't have the energy to write much. sigh.