and this is the post that belongs to monday

an ammendment to (what was supposed to be) sunday's post. i have to live somewhere that gideon has never lived or that he and i haven't been together. so KCMO (satan's taint) is out of the question. i know, i know and i'm always talking about moving back there. what a disappointment. and scooter - it's so funny as i was typing those words i was anticipating you or kim asking about MI that was actually supposed to be part of the post if i had ever finished it. as far as i know gideon has never been to MI but then i have so that is sorta out of the question cuz other than you guys and p.y. stix . . . can't really see a reason.

kim - i did pray to pagan goddess' and also st. anthony. here's why. i no more believe that there is an actual goddess or god dwelling somewhere than i believe that capital g god is sitting in a throne of downy cloud ready to "judge the living and the dead" as it were. what i do believe is that it is easier to connect with the aspects of the divine by giving them persona. ie the aspect of the divine that is the kind and gentle mother - brighid; the aspect of the divine that is unwaivering in the face of death and darkness - morrigan (to oversimplify the point). i believe that jesus was the manifestation of the divine when man became more rationale and intellectual. i also believe that ritual is ritual and that certain rituals because of the strength of the collective consciousness that engage in them have particular strength - ie the st. anthony prayer which i have seen embraced even by hardcore atheist. magic is magic and if something is done enough times the universe will recognize and bend to that. i know that you were just joking but it gave me a chance to articulate something i believe spiritually which isn't always possible. i usually find myself starting sentences and then stopping only to try again

here's some good news for those of you who haven't seen my facebook status

VT Senate Passes Same Sex Marriage Bill http://www.fox44.net/Global/story.asp?S=10056842

and it came from fox so you know it's . . . well, i vetted it with other sources it is in fact true.


i think i'm dying. okay - so i'm not dying but i am sick as a dog and i can't even fricking tell you how much i have to do

i am going to a shamanic workshop in pennsylvania (that so doesn't look like it spelled right). the weekend after is kai's party and i have done pretty much nothing for it. aigh.

okay - i just stressed myself the hell out.

here's something entertaining:


You know, I honestly don't think there's a human word fabulous enough for me.