it's all coming to an end

two more days and it's back to that stinky puss filled boil on humanity where i work.

speaking of stinky - our new game is "stinky kisses" - he kisses me or vice versa and we wipe the kisses off and say "i don't want your stinky kisses". and he just giggles uncontrollably. for the matter sometimes so do i and i'm not much for laughing out loud let alone uncontrollably. so much fun.

so i'm about to watch a movie "what the bleep / down the rabbit hole" which i had no idea but ironically stars marlee matlin. ah, synchronicity. even when it means nothing at all i enjoy it.

i don't know why i can't get a day to myself - it's crazy. i mean sure, theoretically i couldn't but i keep setting one up; i'll make arrangements for my mom to take the boy and be at home or whatever and something always comes up. it's crazy. i can't figure it out. i do think everything happens for a reason. not a "there's a greater purpose" reason. that concept is perhaps slightly too convenient. no, i believe everything happens for a reason as in cause / effect; even when the cause and effect aren't that obvious. create your own destiny so to speak.

although, if i were to embrace the idea of someone else writing our destinies - i actually have an answer to the big why do bad things happen question. it is god's way of trying to inspire our love, compassion, mercy for our fellow humans; a way to try to coax us from our own self import and arrogance, our judmental tendencies etc. so far it's a swing and a miss but i like the concept. what the hell it's as good a mythos as any other.

i also have this random thought about reincarnation. see some people have made the argument that there can't be reincarnation because the number of people on earth just keeps increasing. BUT if there are fewer animals on earth now than previously and more people that would support the hindu version where you evolve up the food chain so to speak. course it would also mean that people were supposedly moving closer to enlightenment and i'm a long way to being convinced of that. it would also mean that it's 'okay' that we are decimating the animal kingdom and i can't abide by that.

anyway, yeah, these are the random thoughts that cloud up my head when i could be trying to think of something useful.

That'll put marzipan in your pie plate, bingo!