do pigs hug each other

i just went to check my blog roll and saw that this did not post - i did done write it yesterday. idk what the hell happened - scout's honor

this is the question my son has been asking me for the last two days as he hugs me. he is extraordinarily affectionate with me though sometimes i wish he would give it a little rest since a great deal of his affection includes swirling my hair all around my face and mushing my face up.

i took him to see the herring run today. not that there were any herring. it really is kind of sad. forget your politics on the affair - i've personally seen a number of declines in nature. when i was little and we came here you literally couldn't see the bottom of the stream/pond because there were so many fish. which malachai would have loved to see but all the same - he was pretty thrilled; they have small waterfalls, rapid streams, little footbridges, seagulls. we went to a playground too and did some painting. which reminds me that this might not be too long i bought him these little animal moulds to paint and i have to mix em up. i do feel bad for him that his father isn't here because i am a HUGE wimp when it comes to being outside in the cold so his play definitely gets cut short. i both bore and freeze easily so . . . see! all the more reason i need to live somewhere warm so i can be a better momma. course i't probably just as well since i think he is fighting a cold - the last two days his nap has been longer than three hours. oh, and he has watched more tv in the last couple of days. he's in (forgive the pun) pig heaven haha

i'm going to moralize for a minute. for the last four, maybe five years i have done the christian children's fund or international children's fund or whatever the fuck they are calling themselves. they have one of if not the highest rating of a charity in the sense that 83 percent (plus or minus a percent)of their funding goes directly to the children. now, it doesn't necessarily go to that child in particular. most of it does but then there is like 5% that goes to that community. there is a whole explanation of it on their site. anyway - if you can at all afford it - then do. it's 22 a month. my first child just 'graduated' out of the program. i try to pick an older child since i figure everyone else will go for the "cute" little ones. i could write a whole blog on the motivation for me doing this but i will give you the very abridged version. you know how everyone says - when my child was born i was sure there was a god. well, for me, the exact opposite. at least not a god like the monotheistic - awarded if you're good / punished if you aren't type of god. the momentary blood going cold when he didn't cry; trying to breast feed and being unable and listening to his desperation; the jaundice panic. and yes, these are all very very minor but that doesn't negate my point / it solidifies it. as you well know - i really love kids. always have. and i get very emotional over anything being less than perfect for them. but nothing more so than children going hungry - actually this is one area that i actually feel for adults and children. i'm not entirely sure why it's such a biggie for me . . .
so yeah, if ya can do it

soapbox done

the one bummer about my mom not coming is that there were some personal thing i figured i would have a little time to attend to - so instead i'm up late fretting over the fact that i haven't done what i wanted but it's too late and i'm too tired to do it now.

and with that - i'm forcing myself to bed. otherwise the kid'll be watching television again tomorrow morning.