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i feel really sick - i'm going to lie down

i wish i was one of those people who didn't question myself. i know people say all the time that it's not a good thing - that self analysis is respectable. questioning yourself is integrity blah blah blah. i don't care about that. i would like peace of mind. i would like to know i'm right even if i'm not. and i know that isn't great for people around you but you know what the only one that you are stuck with forever is you. plus the truth is we should be drawn to those who are more considerate but the psychology of it doesn't pan out that way.

i'm watching lie to me - based on a real guy who can tell if you're lying. here's the question - can you tell if someone is lying like they are telling the truth or they have doubts. like let's say they ask do you love so and so - do they read the truth or what you think is the truth. perhaps you really do love the person despite your doubts. see what i'm getting at?

rain is pouring pouring pouring - love the sound - as long as i don't have to go out into it. it's definitely good to sleep to though :)