ugh

i'm so damned sick

i realized tonight the source of my wistfulness around my son as of late. i'm going to miss him. i'm going to miss the exclusiveness of our bond. it makes me a little sad. i'm an only child who sorta got a taste of what it was to have a sibling when my cousin came to live with us. in addition to that i've seen very few families where one child isn't favored and few families where siblings are glad to have one another. yes i know you are all going to tell me how wonderful it is - i'm telling you what i've seen. and now i have to see the inside of my eyelids.