pathetic

so this is what i do - and i think there is a chance i have been doing it all my life. i pursue people (albeit with less and less energy of late) who don't really have any interest in hanging out with me or whatever and sorta avoid those who do. i have some reasons why i do it. i suppose ultimately i don't really want to hang out with anyone but then i get to thinking that i should be more social. i don't know. i like to go out. whatever. i also view my willingness to talk to people, particularly about my life, as a weakness. i will yap away with someone and then be like why did i do that. a bit tumultous (i think i spelled that wrong).

i am at the very lowest point of personal motivation in perhaps ever. i'm fairly motivated with work but - ugh. i'm bored i guess. and i don't see that changing.

kim had her baby - tiny little thing 9pounds3ounces - - i thik i'm disappointed. :)

so i get one of those online parent magazines. this week's - your 3old manners are important. if you haven't started teaching your kid manners by three years you have a damned uphill battle from there. just one woman's opinion.