Sunday, July 05, 2009

malaise - serious malaise

i'm going to try sleeping before 11 - like as soon as i finish this.

i ate way too much tonight.

i keep thinking - is this all there is. is this life? at the end of my life this is what i will see when i look back. i feel isolated and lonely usually. and there are certain battles i fight over and over. sometimes, especially lately i don't feel like i'm even fighting them anymore. what is the barrier / the line / the distinction between content and complacent and when does it fully dissolve to apathetic?

on a happier note- my little boy kept saying to me today "you're a pretty pretty princess".

we didn't end up going to the birthday party - he had a fever and a weird rash today so i thought it would be best. as it was he ended up sleeping through what would have been the party anyway. i think he would have been disappointed about not going except that we took him to ben and jerry's for a frozen yogurt. :)

oooo - and tomorrow i will post his "city / town" he made out of blocks for "the kings and queens to live in" :)

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