two weeks to go - 9 pounds - no dilation - no reason to assume the end is in sight AIGH
so i keep thinking of the delivery. and the things that go through my mind are the fears, looking forward to moving again - idk doing a pushup or going for a walk and who i will be calling. and who i won't be calling. i keep remembering gideon's emails when malachai was born. he was so excite dof rme and he was never excited. and then months later he told me "more than any other woman i know motherhood hasn't really changed you. maybe it's because you always were a mom" when you adore someone watching them be a parent can boost your love for them. the people who i felt reacted this way with me - - it was like a giant hug and gideon was right there near the top of the list. the crying has started again in the last few days. i just can't keep doing this. and i can't stop either. i really feel like i've stepped into a whole new life. like my history has been erased. sigh.
iwould like to stay up and watch men of a . .. OOOOO i HAVE TIVO!!!! whooohooooo :) still a couple of things we haven't figured out about it but i think i have this one
4 comments:
I hope you start dilating soon! :)
tivo - sweet!
now go have sex.
The sex thing didn't work for us, but I still think it's worth a try. It's easier than taking a walk.
With the first one, there was no countdown to the birth. We both planned on getting everything done 2 weeks before the due date. And, wouldn't you know, the little twerp showed up 2 1/2 weeks early.
The second time around, the process just seemed to move in slow motion. The doctor recommended "lots of sex" but there's a catch to that. Sex is a feel thing. It's not a lot of fun when the other person is in extreme discomfort which puts them in a bad mood.
Of course, you could try some old-school advice and have a couple of drinks first. That might help.
And, BTW, Tivo might just be the greatest invention since the Internet.
Good luck!
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