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Little Baby Fat Face

that's what i'm going with - forget phineas or marcus - it's little baby fat face to me.

anyway, little baby fat face gave me stretch marks. very annoying. his brother only left one on my upper thigh and it faded after a few weeks. these didn't show up until about two weeks before i was due and i am hoping they will fade a bit but ultimately there is no way they are going to go away completely. but the pont of this isn't just me bitching about the gross unfairness of it all. i was laying down on the floor trying to stretch my hip out (i'm on a mission to rid myself of this ridiculous ongoing body pain) and my shirt was up a little. malachai says to me 'you have a boo boo; who gave you that boo boo" carl tells him "the baby gave mommy those boo boos" malachai "because he doesn't like you" hysterical.

i had the boys pictures taken today. it was very stressful and of course i know that me finding it very stressful just adds to the stress of it all. i think i was much more mellow with malachai. im hoping it will all balance out in the next couple of weeks. i seem to be . . . idk, hormonal or something. in part i think i am still recovering from my week with the inlaws. don' get me wrong. i like them, honestly i do but ~ there are things . . . and even if there weren't - i can't think of anyone really that i would like to have at my house for over a week when i come home with my second child. and yes, they stayed at a hotel but they were here from 8 in the morning until 9 or 10 at night. i could go on an don but i will leave it at - i was pretty stressed. by the end of the visit i could have just cried; i think i did a couple of times. and of course their presence robbed me of help that i actually could have used. my mother had time that she could have taken that week to help me out. and now she has some sort of inspection thingie at work and she won't be able to take any more time until after february. hmmm, well, that was fun - i just bitched myself into a frenzy; i'm now upset all over again. really annoyed actually. grrrrr - water bridges / spilled milk

alright there's more but i'm in a frightful state now and little baby fat face is calling.

Happy New Year

i'm gonna try this again

obviously most of my failure here was for good reason but it was failure nonetheless so let's start over. one decision i have made is that if i don't have anything to actually tell you - i will be picking a topic. but not serial killers because the post with that title has elicited a few dozen chinese language responses and what with the not being able to understand kenji . .. although it does look really pretty

as for today i suppose i do have something to say. i mean there is the holiday season, this is the year i turn forty . . . oh and i had a baby ;) phineas marcus - we couldn't quite decide between the two names; we actually intend to use both of them. we'll see. he's great; he looks like a turtle. a giant 10 pound turtle. i have never seen a baby eat as much as he does. truly, it's frightening. i went on line and i was reading other people's posts about how their five to seven week old babies are eating 2-3 ounces at a sitting or 15 minutes on a breast. if i feed the boy pumped breast milk he will eat between 3 and 6 ounces at a sitting and if he is on the breast he will stay there for 20 - 30 minutes until he falls off and then half the time that will only be for a few minutes and then he will want to eat again. he's TWO WEEKS OLD!! in fact, between one week old and two weeks old he gained a pound. he gained a pound in a week. that's just not normal. but more about little baby fat face tomorrow

Labor of Lo . . . Pure cussedness

They started pitocin at 2 because I fell. Still waiting. Does blogging in labor make up for missing saturday?

i can not believe

that i haven't had this kid yet. my cousin - the one who didn't know she was pregnant for 7 months and was due the same day as me and has a serious girlfriend .. . yeah, she had her baby - three days ago. so basically she was pregnant (insofar as she knew) for about 7 weeks - WTF. i'm actually not feeling as bitter about it as i'm jmaking it sound.

i have managed to get almost all my proverbial ducks in a row, a loosely assembled row it's true, but hell - they're ducks what are ya gonna do.

OH --- my boy can do word problem subtraction. he and my mother went through the dunkin donuts drive thru. he heard my mother order three munchkins. as they drove he asked for one and then the other. finally he asked for another and my mother told him that there weren't any more. he says - yes there is - one more left. my mother said how do you know - he says you got three and i ate two. screw chinsabop man - all we need is munchkins.

we decorated the xmas tree today. friggin xmas. i'm just saying - anyway, his teacher at school has basically been bullying us into providing a family picture - so here it is - i look like a giant green whale

grrrr

i wish people would stop telling me they have a feeling i'm going into labor because the truth is - i don't think i'm ever going into labor.

the boy and the father got the tree today. if you know me you know i'm not really a fan but it's nice. we took out some of the xmas stuff too and the boy slept with the stuffed santa we have and his book of course. normally he just sleeps with books like they were teddy bears. what can i say - he's an odd kid. OH and he did his own buttons tonight on his pajama top

i'm only one woman dammit

i can't spend much time with you today my friends. we are working on names.

adara
Adira
Alannah
alessandra
Alexis
althea
Amira
andreana
annabel
annalisa
Annorah
Anya
Anyanka
Arabelle
Arela
ariela
ariya
Avaline
Belinda
bethany
Brieanna
Brighid
Brigitte
caitlin
caitrin
camille
caragh
Catriona (Katrina)
Cessair
Charissa
Coralee
cordelia
Corinna
Dalila
danae
danika
daria
darianda
Davina
Dechtire
deidre
Delaine
delia
demara
Devnet
diella
Drusilla
faith
Genevieve
gianna
guinevere
Gwendolyn
hazel
iphigenia
Isabel
isabella
jacinda
jacqueline
jamie
janessa
jayden
jezebel
jocasta
joie
josephine
juliet
kaia
Kara
Kareena
katarina
katya
kaya
Kaydee
kayla
kayla
kaylee
Kaylin
Keiara
Kerrin
Kerwiin
Laina
Lavena
leandra
Leannan
Lenore
letitia
Lilah
Lilibeth
lilly- lilly anne
Linette
Lorelei
lucinda
lysandra
magdalene
marissa
melissa
moira
Nessa
Priscilla
reanna
rhea
rhiannon
roisin
Rosaleen
rosalind
rose
Roxanne
Sabina
sabrina
saffron
Samantha
Saraid
seachlan
Seanna
Serafin
Serena
Sitara
Sorcha
Sorina
starling
stephanie
sybil
Tabitha
tahlia
talullah
Tamara
tamsin( tem-sheen)
tatanya
teagan
Teressa
toireasa
Vanessa
veronica
winifred

not today either

i had to go have a non-stress test today. i won't walk you through all the details but there seemed to have been less movement. anyway, apparently all was well - unfortunately not a single contraction in sight. big surprise - the first kid i thought would be late was two weeks early. this one? well, i didn't think i would go really early but everyone else was surprised to see me even make it out of november and here we are - if the kid came today it'd only be about a week early. i thought the second one was supposed to come earlier dammit!!